I thought I'd start posting about my life on here or else I think my best friend Casey is going to kill me (I love you Casey)lol. My life has had its downs this year alot but  I guess its also had a few ups. The downs out number the goods by ALOT so yeah... its not that great. Right now I honestly say  i just wanna scream and hide in a corner so no more bad things can happen and so life doesn't have to change anymore even though life is always changing! :(
   
   One of the major things happening that is bad is people dying. I HATE it when someone close dies or anyone ingeneral dies. Steven died a lil over a month a go and my heart still has a HUGE hole and i still feel the pain of his death every single day. I think about him every day like what hed be doing or that he'd love this day because he was always out walking or doing something... I just wish he wouldn't of done what he did because so many people around here loved him more than hed ever know... I have also had my aunt and uncle die. I was close to my aunt and she passed away in Oct. but i still miss her Really badly. Family gathering are never the same anymore because she is gone. My uncle died and he is missed also. Everyone in my family have big holes in their hearts missing the people we have lost since September of 2007. Steven for some reason i miss the most. I think it is because I hung out wiht him so much and I seen him everyday at school and gave him a huge everyday... gosh I miss his bear hugs... his hugs were the best hugs that anyone ever could give. Another thing that happened is me and my boy friend of almost 3 years broke up which was very heart breaking. I know it was probably for the better but I still miss him and wish things could of turned out better.

   There are some good things that have also happened. One thing is my junior year is almost over and I am still passing. One of my best friends in the world gets to be happy and move away and become what she has always wanted. I got really close to my friends this year... which I am so glad cause I really needed them. I cant think of many good things that have happened because... really there anit very many.

  I guess I am going to quit ranting now... I hope to continue this posting things about my life I guess I am going to get out of here and talk to all ya'll who are reading this later...

Cya

Susie